Children: A life’s Blessing

THIS post was originally penned on 22th August. But for some reasons, I didn’t manage to finish the idea and it was left laying idle here. Until today.

Today is the eve of Eid al-Adha, which also called the “Sacrifice Feast” or “Bakr-Eid”, is the second of two Muslim holidays, and considered the holier of the two. It also marks the end of the Hajj (annual pilgrimage to Makkah) where Muslims throughout the world celebrate the holiday of Eid al-Adha (Festival of Sacrifice).

And for Malaysians irrespective of their religious beliefs, this holiday is the perfect time when we get together with family and loved ones.  That’s one of the things I love about my fellow Malaysians, living in muti-racial society. Everyone’s holiday is our holiday too!

And my mother would be sad if I don’t turn up for our family get-together. Hence, today, after my morning walk and cleaned up the house, I just packed some essentials and drove for two hours to my home town down south be with my mom and my children down south.

I haven’t seen my children for almost two weeks but I miss them horribly.

My children’s love is the kind of love that keeps growing, expanding and revealing itself to me throughout my everyday life.

It started with my only child, Adam, all consuming love then.

Then my niece Sarah was born. Granted that she is not my biological child. But as Adam and Sarah grew up in the same household, so our relationship. She calls me mom too. On top of her own mother.

Then Azri. Ika followed next. Then came the little munchkin Ainul.

I thought my heart was going to burst! How can I love these children that God blessed me with so very much? I honestly did not know pure love like this, as the love I knew up to this point had conditions, expectations and demands.

When life throws me off balance, with turmoil and chaos shakes me up, all I have to do just close my eyes and see them in my mind. Take this moment to really feel the pure love, from me to them. Then the chaos becomes, well, less chaotic, yes?

Now that I’ve got this “love on steroid” five times over, I need to share it as much as I need my life-breath. And when times are challenging, which is a lot of the time, I try to remind myself to turn to this place of unconditional love, and the rest will, in time, pass by.

Love is the constant, the unifier.

The past two weeks there was chaos in my mind for many reasons.

But today, as I have arrived at my mom’s place, the moment I held my little munchkin in my arms and followed by Adam who came to kiss my cheek, all problems seem so distance and not as chaos… A