Happy Birthday, Deepest Condolences

HOW one feels if your beloved father passed away on your birthday…

I can’t even start to imagine it.

Today is Jeff’s birthday and today is the day his beloved father passed away.

Jeff was texting me not too long ago about the sad news.

Earlier today, I didn’t think much when he texted me at 6am this morning, knowing that he is helping his mom taking care of his father in the past week or so…

But the news just caught me speechless.

I have lost my dad when I was 38 after long illness following a stroke. And I have lost a husband when I was 45. So I  knew how it feel to have lost the loved ones.

No word of comfort can possibly comfort us in time like that. From my own experience, the pain was so deep that I was too scared to feel it, scared that if I think too much about the pain I was experiencing then, it would drag me down into a whirlpool of unknown misery and indescribable pain and there was no guarantee that I would be able to pull myself out of it…

And it was a scary feeling… 

But how can one prepare to face such a painful reality. Our birthday could be one of the day that we are looking forward to…or dreaded (of getting a year older)…depend on the situation. But to lose your loved ones on your birthday it is just too painful…

Jeff… My heart goes out to you and your mom in difficult time like this… May God brings you and your mom the much-needed peace and strength during this sad and difficult time…A