Unfinished Posts

IT HAS been a while since I came here to write…

Though I did write one or two posts since April…It was nothing compared to what I have written in the past…

Yes the idea behind this blog when I set it up with Jeff in September 2015 was to write anything that caught my imagination or anything that I needed to unload, as I was going through a very rough patch then.

Then I noticed the happier and more stable I become, lot less posts I put up here.

Then people may say, why should I just shared my problems here with the world and keep the happiness to myself.

Why don’t I share my happiness too? 

But to be fair, I am not exactly over the moon with happiness.

It just that as I am settling in with current job, lot other things started to dominate my mind and effectively I have lot less time to put my thoughts here…

Yes I am lot happier, I am at much better place – emotionally, psychologically and financially (though this one can be improved a lot but am not complaining as I can pay my bills on time…I can help out my family and most importantly I can send Adam to college without him worrying about having enough pocket money and college fees…)

And that’s the luxury that I have now and the feeling is indescribable.

For having struggled for years to finally be able to breathe bit easier is a bless… I am blessed. 

I am fairly contented. Thank you God.

When you finally found your inner self that had gone missing over the years due to life’s ups and downs, the feeling was just immense…

You feel like you have spring in your step…

And here I am looking at the long list of unfinished posts that I noted down here since April where most of them already have titles which means I had an idea what to write then but now I am totally clueless what was supposed to be the content…

Truth to be told I was planning to update this blog in September when I had one month leave in between contracts…

That was my plan but I was ill throughout my break that I hardly managed to do anything…apart from frequenting the clinic for doctor’s appointments…

It was just flu…cough..fever…that visited me one after another… but rendered me missing out so many things that I planned. It was really frustrating…to say the least.

Though I had wonderful time bonding with my munchkin, my three year old niece, in that one month’s break…

You can’t win them all. You win some, you lose some… 

And in the past two months mom has been unwell on and off. Apart from munchkin will fall ill if I don’t see her in a week. So I have been busy commuting between KL to my home town about three hours drive each way…

Now that I am back (fingers crossed that ideas will keep flowing)… I am sure I will find something useful (not necessarily interesting though) to write in that unfinished posts. Something that hopefully beneficial to my readers… and not just my self indulgences… as majority of my posts were…

Only a week ago someone teased me after my lengthy nag based on my analyses (that was purely based on my assumption), so you can imagine how misguided the nag was and how annoying for him to read that he wondered out loud what I would do before the invention of the Internet… 👿 

I was laughing and embarrassed at the same time and that’s when I remembered I have this blog that I hardly visited in the recent months.

So instead of picking up wasteful and annoying fights might as well I start writing here…

Then…may be I should stop analysing things too much as someone have just advised me yesterday after noticing how I would appeared to be ‘crippled’ with too many analyses going through my mind…where majority were just based on my assumption… A